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Mom isn't speaking to me.  She has always said that she never played favorites.  But she has.  Always. 
My sister is her favorite.  My brother and his son both got cards and checks on their birthdays.  I know for a fact that my sister and her daughter will get cards and checks on their birthdays.  I got nothing.  No card.  Nothing.  Same thing last year.  I should stop hoping things will change.  I always hope and I always end up getting hurt and disappointed that no one cares enough to even give me a simple card. 
I'm not worth it, I guess.